the fact that i heard this song in an ad and though its REAL cheezy it still resonated with me, the fact that “i wish like i could like i could be like all the cool kids cause all the cool kids they seem to fit in,” the fact that stalking Vassar cool kids on instagram makes me feel so insecure and excluded and isolated even and especially during this pandemic, the fact that i really miss my friends and dont think ive done a great job staying in touch with people, the fact that nadav and i have talked about this, the fact that mcclain and i have talked about this, the fact that i feel like my friendships with zoe and violet have disintegrated, the fact that im sure they're busy and struggling, like i am, the fact that i hope for our friendship that's why i haven't talked to them but the fact that i hope for them as people thats not the case and they've just moved past our friendship,