the fact that i'm struggling with intermediate, action-oriented steps between the present, the here and now, and my future goals and interests, the fact that i'm aware of clearly defined interests but am really struggling with a lack of clearly defined paths, the fact that I don't feel like i'm just constantly in search of something that is in the future, living for the future and not for the moment, the fact that i feel grounded in process but that i need a future goal to provide structure to the process of daily life, wandering, aimless, lost, funemployed, vanlife, “not all those who wander are lost”, what if i am lost though? r/lostgeneration, space, the fact that we're all just floating here in space, ♫ Do you realize we're floating in space? ♫, Avenue 5, spaceship earth, bowl cut maintenance, the illusion, The Matrix, Best Job Search Sites for Entry-Level Positions, the fact that I want to create art and write but feel status pressure and financial anxiety that motivate me to pursue a 'career,' the fact that I also want to work in mental health and critical consciousness-raising (see communication skills, conflict resolution), List of over 12,000 careers, [MEGA THREAD] Let's list off all the jobs we think will be safe from automation, and all the jobs that will be affected in the next decade or two, r/Futurology, r/DarkFuturology, The Dystopic Leftist Youth of Reddit and Facebook, Day Jobs For Writers; Yes, Real Writers Have Day Jobs; self-doubt, self-employed, isolation, alienation, freelance, instability, lack of structure and community, Jobs That Leave You Time to Write, Does Having a Day Job Mean Making Better Art?, “a day job might perform the same replenishing ministries as sleep or a long run: relieving creative angst, restoring the artist to her body and to the texture of immediate experience,” Don't give up the day job – how artists make a living | Culture | The Guardian, The Best Day Jobs for Aspiring Artists and Other Creative Types | Complex, Artists: Find the right day job | CareerBuilder, the fact that this is a list of jobs/careers that i would be interested in that i think is somewhat exhaustive for me right now:

What are some career paths in which I can apply my knowledge of and conviction from critical theory?, “Of course, the academy has no impact either. If arguing with Nick Land's right-accelerationist interpretation of dialectical materialism sounds like a worthwhile use of the final decade of the Anthropocene, that's on you,” Career advice for a fan of critical theory?, Those with degrees in Critical Theory, what are you doing now?, Modern Critical Theory Academia, the fact that i should separate my job from my life work, the fact that for my job i should pursue mental health services since i have experience in the field and its likely to be a really sustainable source of income given that our world is a fucking mess, psychedelic therapy, social work degree, tech therapy, the fact that for my life work i'm interested in critical theory, maybe a phd, mental health writing, art, community building, cooperative living, One and Three Ideas: Conceptualism Before, During, and After Conceptual Art – Journal #29 November 2011 – e-flux, Alexandro Segade on Sense8 – Artforum International, Post-conceptual Britain | Prospect Magazine, carrasco2012.pdf, Peter Osborne: The postconceptual condition / Radical Philosophy, Frederic Jameson, Walter Benjamin, Post-conceptual art – Wikipedia, Microsoft Word – Lecture Peter Osborne_TESTO.doc, Conceptual art – Art Term | Tate, When Contemporary Art Feels Too Inaccessible, What the Art World Can Do to Make Art Accessible to More People – Artsy, Why Is Academic Writing So Academic? | The New Yorker, The Ig Nobel Prize and Other Efforts to Eradicate Complex Academic Writing – The Atlantic, Why Inaccessibility? Despite progressive tone, attacks on academics' lack of clarity can be profoundly regressive. | Impact of Social Sciences, Academic Language and the Problem of Meaninglessness : literature, Academic Language and the Problem of Meaninglessness | Current Affairs, Seeing Race Again by Kimberlé Williams Crenshaw, Luke Charles Harris, Daniel Martinez HoSang – Paperback – University of California Press, Are there philosophers who address the inaccessibility of language in philosophy? : askphilosophy, Warren Neidich: The Glossary of Cognitive Activism, Warren Neidich – Wikipedia, Mark Fisher – Wikipedia, The Psychopathologies of Cognitive Capitalism: The Cognitive Turn Organized by Mark Fisher and Warren Neidich | Goldsmiths, University of London, 2020 | Berlin – Saas-Fee Summer Institute of Art, PhD Application Question : CriticalTheory, Which schools have the “best” Critical Theory (or similar) post graduate programs? : CriticalTheory, Studying critical theory? : GradSchool, the fact that i'm interested in pursuing a career as an artist, as if, Advice for Artists on How to Make a Living—When Selling Art Doesn’t Pay the Bills – Artsy, Why You Will Fail to Make a Living as an Artist | Artwork Archive, How to Increase Your Opportunities In The Art World | Artwork Archive, How to Make Money as an Artist on Instagram | Artwork Archive, 4 Artists Share Their Social Media Strategies – Artsy, Artists Become Famous through Their Friends, Not the Originality of Their Work – Artsy, These Artists Jump-Started Their Careers by Selling Directly to Collectors on Instagram – Artsy, Art/Work – Revised & Updated: Everything You Need to Know (and Do) As You Pursue Your Art Career: Bhandari, Heather Darcy, Melber, Jonathan: 9781501146169: Books, How to Survive and Prosper as an Artist: Selling Yourself without Selling Your Soul (Seventh Edition): Michels, Caroll: 9781621536130: Books, The Artist's Guide: How to Make a Living Doing What You Love: Battenfield, Jackie: 9780306816529: Books, Grad school : psychoanalysis, Spaces of Psychoanalysis on VimeoGraduate programs for studying critical theory? : CriticalTheory, Critique of Psychology : CriticalTheory, Modern Psychotherapy and Revolutionary Tendencies : socialism,