the fact that I'm white and masc but I'm often scared of my safety, the fact that I'm perceived as queer and people have yelled homophobic slurs at me, the fact that a homeless man tried to punch me in the face, the fact that it felt difficult to explore my gender at vassar, the fact that it's easier to know your place than to explore uncertainty, taking up space, gatekeeping, genderqueer, the fact that some queer people can make me feel insecure and not queer and cis and straight and cis norm straight people make me feel so queer,